The reason I never took medication is dead simple. I was scared.
I used to think that using psych meds meant risking my sanity, so why push my luck?
Sounds dumb now but that’s what my mind screamed at the height of my nervous sickness.
There was also the issue of control. Actually, I still have control issues.
I like to be in control – always have. When I’m in a car, I drive. When I’m on an airplane, I wish like hell that I could drive.
So back in the day the more I felt anxiety the more I craved control of my environment and everything in it. It made me feel safe.
But it was also that need for control that clashed hard with any kind of risk taking – even the kind that helps.
In the end, I regret not trying anti-anxiety medications because they could have reduced my suffering.
To help me explain why I never used anti-anxiety medications and how that impacted my life I produced a short podcast.
Take a moment to listen and comment below.