The reason I never took medication is dead simple. I was scared. I used to think that using psych meds meant risking my sanity, so why push my luck? Sounds dumb now but that's what my mind screamed at the height of my nervous sickness. There was also the issue of control. Actually, I still have control issues. I like to be in control - always have. When I'm in a car, I drive. When I'm on an airplane, I wish like hell that I could drive. So back in the day the more I felt anxiety the more I craved control of my environment and